Start (or Continue) a Journal

Today, my humble advice is to Start or Continue a Journal. If you haven't already recorded your thoughts, feelings and/or questions, then start. Have a journal or diary? Then bring/keep it up to date.

If you're just starting, you may wish to write in a notebook, diary or journal. Or, you may want to record your voice and/or you can try an online journal. Try one method and then another if you're not sure how you want to record your thoughts. OR, you can keep separate journals for different topics.

You don't have to write every day, but record good times as well as bad times. Journal when you have questions, when you're confused, when you're anxious or depressed, when you're sad and when you're happy.

I have listed Live Journal on the side for those who wish to try the online method. Users may choose to make their journal(s) private or public and you can search for public journals with similar subjects and/or problems.

Tied in Knots

Tied in Knots – originally written Aug. 14, 2009

I fidget – a lot. Most of the time, I fool with with my hair. I braid it, twirl it, tug on it and sometimes twist or tie it into knots. That's what I've been doing all morning and that's what I did for three (3) or more hours last night. It would help if I showered and washed my hair, but only for a little while. As soon as I sat down to watch TV or something, I'd be fidgeting with it again. Even when I put it in a pony tail or wear a bandana over it, I still find ways to mess it up. I've even had to go get one knot CUT OUT by a beautician because I couldn't un-knot it myself! I've tried several other things such as playing with rubberbands or a stress ball, but nothing stops me for long.

I need to do something productive that will distract me from always fiddling around with my hair. I've thought about learning to knit and I have at least one latch-hook project (I think) but, again, I would probably not stick to it!

I need a purpose! I'm not just talking about something to do such as washing dishes or doing other housework – because I hate housework! I need a real purpose, a goal other than taking care of other people or even other pets. What I need is a job outside the house or else I need to physically go to school!

Now, that may sound drastic or even crazy to some people, but I need the structure. I need someone else to tell me what to do and when to do it. I need a schedule and/or deadlines. I need a reason to stay up even on days when my stomach hurts or I'm extremely tired and most of all, I need a reason to take a shower other than my hair being dirty.